i feel like i should write something..but i think there is too much in my head and i cant get it in order to make into sentences to write in this blog...lets try anyways...
anyways im painting my room yellow...well i want to...and im trying to find some cool curtains...maybe black and grey plaid...maybe a little light blue in there somewhere. i jsut want it to be done...so i can have my own space...that i can actually be in.. lol..i can see it in my head...the finished product..but its taking so long to do...ugg...
i wish i had something really cool and insightful to say...i guess im not so good with words...:/ wish i were....
do you ever feel like you want to be everywhere and nowhere at the same time?...
maybe that makes no sense but i really feel that way. like i want to do so many things over the coarse of my life..but i dont really like being alone...well sometimes i do..i dunno..i have more fun with others...but anyways..im sitting here on the couch and all i can think about is...nothing...like literally nothingness....like how horrible is that...? i want to go...but i dont know where i want to go...or what i want to do when i get there...but i just want to go...maybe i like the idea of the new...liek the place...that would be new to explore with ones you love and care about...
i realized i really highly dislike seeing people from high school that you never talk to anymore but used to be like really good friends with..AWKWARD!!...ug its like thhhheee worst. like after the small talk what the heck to you say?...i mena i know im not just gunna spill my whole life story to them...and i know they arnt to me..its just so uncomfortable...ew...def one of the worst situations ever...
well ive just been feeling really low key kinda mellow laid back lately...im kinda scared to ask anyone to do anything...kinda afraid they will get angry or hate my idea of fun...im being ridiculous most likely..but i feel that way sometimes...:/ so im kinda staying to myself...but im not so sure if thats a good thing or not...
you all may think im crazy after this one...but im sure someone thinks somethings similarly to myself...i just posted it for all the world to see...maybe i am crazy! lol ah
...everyone wants to be loved...
...but only One can ever fill that want and need...
1 comment:
its times when i feel like i dont have anything to say that words come out of my mouth...and they seem to be the words of my heart. It just takes time learning how to start, then it all flows in together. I really hope this begins to be an outlet for you. If not, I understand...haha. I just really like how we can all see whats goin on in each others lives. I know that I def. cant always say what im feeling so this is great.
love always
Justin
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